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| Mankind |
| 09.15.04 (12:11 pm) [edit] |
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I found some old poems. I wrote this when I was at school. 15 or 16 years old.
Mankind
Earth, a spark, in itself,among the rest.
A youngster, newly born.
Raising, with gracefull, spherical beauty.
Bursting, with enthusiastic mirth.
Mankind, spreading like a happy rash.
Covering all but the four corners.
Shaping, moulding to their own selfish whim.
Gradual, so called developement.
Destruction, death of innocents.
Ignorance reigns over many a race.
War, mass murders, by political allmighty.
Or those who think, they are.
Racing each other, competing.
For God-like leadership.
Bombs which can destroy total earth.
Soon will be released.
In a race to be first.
To be first to comit global suicide
In the race for genocide
Mankinds doing allright
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| Heat |
| 08.12.04 (10:00 am) [edit] |
My airy Prince, pure
Bathe me,cool my passion
This melting force, my centre
Say my name love, speak
Pour on dark embraces
Soak me in your very being
I singe and splutter
A whirlwind, cleansing spirit
Feel my heat, with liquid love
Resurect my parched heart
Quench this desert
This molten pool, simmering
Let me sink into those jewels
Feed this drought Im nurturing
I rise with your rain
Heavy surf, sweeping it away, the hurt
I live, cleansed, happy
Beneath your misty nectar
Gorge myself, be relenquished
Kept whole, together, fluid
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| You |
| 08.08.04 (12:44 pm) [edit] |
You
you left me
you said you would never
i waited
i said it didnt matter
you promised
you wanted to make it alright
i believed you
i loved you, listened
you told me
you never ment to hurt
i needed you
i shut out the pain
you were silent
you never said why
i want to forget
i dont love you the same
not the same
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| Weakness |
| 08.08.04 (12:39 pm) [edit] |
Weakness
Anticipate, the wait, halt time
Your taste, lingering ...against my teeth
Memories stinging, your last touch
A prize unclaimed, My weakness
Your love virulent, abusive
Taunts, shamed, filth pours fourth
Resigned, I lay down for you
Starcrossed and tortuous
Expose my fundamental essence
Give you my spirit, libertine
Bruised, yet aching...wanting
I wonder, how many times
Bitter, viscus on my tongue
How many tears I'll shed
Torn, ripped in two, crazy fool
Find the feeling, stoke my prowess
One burning touch from you
Can bring me down, for ever.
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| High Twista |
| 07.27.04 (2:02 am) [edit] |
Twista, spin me...high
Laugh like I cant resist ya,
Toss me low, with the flow
Never let me chill mista
Kick the rythem, fire it up
Pump it slow baby, fill my cup
Pull me back in
When Im in your spin
Tie my hands with love, yeah
Fuck my brains, like you care
Love my body, free my mind
Your in my head, enough, rewind
Replay, monster meat..like thick
Spill the seed, catch my lick
Jump me baby, gimmy your sugar
Skin, slick...rubbing mother
Held in the twist, mid air light
Send me high baby, feel me right
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| Time |
| 07.17.04 (4:20 am) [edit] |
I hate the way everything gets all squished to the side*sighs*..spoils everything..how it looks is also Important..ahh well:)
Time
Motionless, waiting.. brushing away the gentle tug ..the whispers ..seductive against my ear.
I see them..scuttling in my minds eye, tearing apart what flimsy boundries I have left.
Pushing against the blood rushed walls...not so gentle...hammering their message home.
Go..Go..Go to him...slide beneath pounding boots...slime covered heels hells hammers.
I try...resist..be strong..block out the screams, the shreiking which burrows deep..tunneling forth to turn me.
His icy fingers reach out, pulling at my shadows. The damp residance of ..Him. All watching.
Waiting for my fall, its only a matter of time they say, cackling through rotten eves.
I will not!...gathering shattered will I face away...slowmotion, swimming in syrup...so very slow
It draws me close, that place..I can not..will not give in...to him..give them what they need..no!
He moves..flashing at the corner of my eye, pulling...powerfully..whispers merging..blending.
Agony you are mine!...painful shards of conscience, pushing deep..deep beneath luminescent skin.
Plucking..pulling simmering lengths drawing towards...that place ..standing..just waiting.
I turn..reluctant tears and run..wildly back..into him.
clare
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| Twilight |
| 07.09.04 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
Twilight
Twilight tales in fading light
Of spooks and spectres
Creatures of the night
Twitters an scuttles
Rumagings an rustles
Do you hear them too?
Shadows and skitters
Whispers and witters
You sit, frozen as stone
Flesh crawling, stomache churning
Which way?...Which way will it come?
clare
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| The Oak |
| 07.07.04 (1:34 pm) [edit] |
The Oak
Against the night, imposing, majestic
Yonder Oak resides
Soaring and mighty
Wise and sombre
Watching over us
Oh what affairs have you glimpsed?
But mute you remain
Your secrets held gravely within
Locked tight at your core
Children playing at your feet
Have now grown old and died
You watch them pass
Saddness prickling at every bough
Your many leaves, dropping away
The carpet warms your roots
Whispering wind all around
Tugs non too gently, your branches stir
Sturn and sturdy, the Oak stands
Soild and reliable
Its heart heaves a heavy sigh
As it waits...and waits
clare
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| Living The Dream |
| 06.30.04 (1:09 am) [edit] |
Living The Dream
Seek out your one true hearts desire
Think not of others jest
Be your own judge, as best you can
See clearly future dreams
A shining flame amongst others
Be your own self, be your best
Defender of your own sweet world
An all which it contains
Protect your right to seek it out
Do not let it be waved
Bring the spark within you
Nurture, let it grow
All of this I ask of you
Hard as it may seem
Unless you try and see your worth
Who else will live your dream?
clare
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| Your Still With Me... |
| 06.30.04 (1:04 am) [edit] |
Your still with Me
This pain is just too real
Ive tryed so hard to do this right
My heart tearing, ripping
I cant escape
My head, its spinning, wavering
Oh how I long for relief from torment
I linger in the doorway of reality
I dont want to face the monsters there
Your presence lingers here
My heart won't let you go
Captured, trapped inside your gilded cage
A plaything for you to plunder
Why does my heart ache so?
I dont understand the chaos
Yet I have made my bed
Now I lie in it.
Clare
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| Taking Over Me |
| 06.23.04 (3:35 am) [edit] |
Taking Over Me
Tis only but a tiny spark
Left inside my heart
What will become of our sweet pain
Amongst times dancing sprites and fey
Sail onward overland
Where shall our journey end?
Do as you will, but harm him not
Those words spoken easily, swiftly forgot
Dark knight of stoney stature
Fire and Ice within
Shatter yes, that I will
Break in where pain resides
Brimming senses, pounding heart
Heat, too much to bare
Air thick, with sufforcating breath
I fight against the swell
Drawing me inside, it does
Consuming, burning my very soul
So fragile I have become
Darkness swallows my fading light
Envelopes my pain
No more pain, sure enough
No more
Here silence is deafening
Clare
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| Dreams |
| 06.20.04 (4:37 am) [edit] |
Dreaming
Your half a world away.
But in my dreams , you are mine.
As I sit, your right by me.
Whispering your sweet words.
All day long I reach for your gentle touch.
This distance, tearing at my spirit.
I am bound to you.
In my minds eye I see you there,
Connecting, explore with me, we can fly.
My heads in the clouds,
My feet on solid earth,
A heart torn between.
Clare
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| For Bartie |
| 06.17.04 (1:25 am) [edit] |
Friend
A friend we need, a treasure found.
Shining star of trust, sparkles true
Stormy waters, bring high tides.
Battering ones defenceless spirit.
A friends love, unconditional.
Warms your chilly soul
Finding such a friend, truly lucky.
Bringing joy when needed.
A wise word, a bolstering hug,
Never taking more, more than offered.
When true friendship grows,
Hold fast, Hold strong, Hold them near.
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| The Prison... |
| 06.09.04 (11:03 pm) [edit] |
The Prison
This is my prison,
My Cell, bound by love.
A love without reasoning,
My inner strength withered.
A shadow of what once was,
Strong woman, vibrant and full.
They take it all, my beautiful children.
The constant bikering, the noise.
Ive become so numb to it all.
Like a machine, plug me in damn it!
Every step forward, such a struggle.
Im so tired, yet I could run
Of course I dont.
My babies need me, Im a shadow
All sucked out of me, all my self.
Allways guilt, give, give, give, until Ive nothing left!
Why?!...this must be self abuse.....because,
One day, to turn and look,
Upon an angelic face, bursting with love,
And hope, a sweet smile, and everything...
Everything is great, my lifes purpose.
Clare
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| The Lake looked so pretty... |
| 06.07.04 (3:45 am) [edit] |
The Lake
Shimmering Orb, sphere of crystal. The moon hangs full,shades of lilac
Perched in the clear, golden sky. Birdsong echos sweetly, joyously
Across the silky water of the small lake, framed, with wonderful trees, green and gold
Standing tall, guardians of time itself
Dancing Bluebells, honey scented, heady. Glowing in the fading dusk
Willows, hanging, tremulous at the edge. Golden catkins, tugging at the girls hair
The lovers kiss once, long and slow. Beneath the twinkling dimond stars
Tumbling ruby waves, a vail to hide behind
The tiny craft, floating steady, upon the fluid lake. Dark as deepest night, cloaked
In misty ripples, the lake moves them on. His heart pounding, dipping his rich black covered head
Arms wrapping her up tight, protective. The kiss merging
They melt as one, into bliss
This dream still lives, in their hearts. Tears of sadness, crawling reluctant over creamy cheeks
Staring across the Lake, he smiles weakly. Turning the boat back
Back...to reality.....
clare
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| Raw |
| 06.05.04 (2:19 pm) [edit] |
Raw
Give it all away, strip away the pain
This mask, the passionate pretence.
of unspoken lies
Take everything, from the outside,
And throw it all away.
Its the final time.
The dark moon soon rises,
Washing away my light,
Shadows of ones mind, push forth.
Display the void which was once my heart.
Iluminate my souless centre.
With your dusky radiance.
Keep your hands away!, dont touch me now.
I will not endorse this myth.
Its gone, my reasoning why.
Clare
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| Who Am I...? |
| 06.04.04 (11:37 pm) [edit] |
I am weak, I want to be strong.
I live in my head, not in reality.
I dream, I fantasise, It hurts not too.
I cant face my life, I hate all of it.
I come out of hiding, poke out my head.
I love my children.
I hide right back,I cant face the world.
I have demons, they haunt me at night.
I never listen, I have to turn away.
I should pull my self together.
I am afraid of myself.
I need to move on, but I wont.
I am stuck in this fragile dream, of my own making.
I know what to do, how to get out.
I wont do it, I cant break free.
I think Im doing fine, I know Im not.
I am living a lie, everythings a front.
I am a fake, fake wife..lover.
I love my children, I need to protect them.
I sacrifice myself, my innerself, for them.
I am not real, I am 3 people.
I am a wife and mother, carer.
I am a lover, a slutty whore, dirty and sick.
I am a child of earth, Goddess loving free spirit.
I dont know which is real.
I cant seperate them
I am all 3, triple aspected.
I am maiden, mother, crone.
The Goddess Reflected.
Clare
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| Don't Try To Hide.... |
| 06.03.04 (11:17 am) [edit] |
Don’t Try To Hide
Love is but a wish away
Within your heart it seems
Release the bonds within your soul
Swim the river of my dreams
Drowning, overcome, flailing arms
Laughter, sweet, like honeyed kiss
Give in to me, my sweet one
Follow as I wish
Falling, further, faster now
Sinking, entwined, spinning wildly
Give yourself to pleasure my love
Let ardour rule you, lead you blindly
Explore beneath, in waters deep
Mellow and warm like wine
Feel life force draining, disappear
Your will no more, it’s mine
Deaths luxurious vail you wear
A pallor of lunar light
No more dreaming now my love
For you are mine this night
Clare
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| The Ice Queen Cometh |
| 06.02.04 (12:50 am) [edit] |
The Ice Queen Cometh
I am not touched by any
Your weak willed flames do no harm
A core of ice, a heart of stone
Immune to all your sweet charm
Painful shards of bitter ice
Frosty skin, smooth as glass
Snowy clouds of ethereal hair
Eyes of crystal blue
Sleeping, struggling, weakly beating
A heart so deeply entombed
Never to be softened
Until, great and powerful, you, find it
You will not break this frozen shell
A diamond coated soul
Protected by a sparkling dew
I exist beneath a mask, of shimmering light
Waiting, for the light
The scintillating aura, radiating
Illuminating, surrounding my champion
Glowing from his passionate heart
Release this frozen wasteland
Let is shatter, with painful lust
Raise up your flaming, throbbing blade
Infused with its dark magic’s
Shatter, splinters fly, spinning
Falling away, like ancient glaciers
Can you feel me glowing
Tiny, precious, pulsating heart
Growing with each simmering, burning thrust
Touch me with your fiery touch
Melt away this bitterness
Slowly thaw the icy pearl
Each stroke, brings me closer
Steaming, seeping liquid pain
Washing it all away
Bitterly cold air thrilling me
If you bring this snowy Queen back
Relight my deep soul within
With bright and flickery embers
Your prize will surly befit your quest
Clare :wink:
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| The Darkness |
| 06.01.04 (11:36 am) [edit] |
The Darkness
Her welcoming touch, enchants,
A magnetic, magical, mantle,
Enticing, drawing you close.
Warm, humid, dampness within,
The Darkness commands
Rejoice in her embrace,
Assaulting your senses.
Her musky sent oppressive,
Intoxicating, addictive nectar.
Your hunger grows, you yield.
Explore further sweet traveller,
Come in…feel my heat.
Sliding along the smooth walls
Dripping, creamy skin
With pounding heart you push on.
Unbearable pressure, you cannot turn
Eyes a glow, she covers you
The creeping, shadowy mist,
But you care not, your need is greater
Sweet wine you taste,
Lost in her embrace
Clare
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